I have had a difficult era that I am stuck in with the problem of back pain and related DUIs which took out my ability to drive, along with probation sticking me inconveniently in Lancaster. It’s been difficult also to see the collapse of social networking (which is not the same as social media) and lose that sense of togetherness online.
But the way forward is to find a job in a major northeastern city or a remote job, with my good computer skills. The way forward is for true friends to really support me. This is a difficult, painful era in my life, but rebuilding is possible.
It’s difficult also to have bulked up to the point where running is no longer feasible. My close comrade committed suicide and his close friend followed.